Have You Ever

Have you ever noticed
that the worst way
to miss someone
is when they are
right beside you
and yet you
can never have them.....
when the moment
you can't feel them
under your fingertips
you miss them?

Have you ever wondered
which hurts the most;
saying something and wishing
you had not, or
saying nothing and wishing
you had?

I guess the most important things
are the hardest things to say.
They are the things
you get ashamed of
because words diminish them,
words shrink things
that seemed timeless
when they were in your head.....
to no more than living size
when they are brought out....
Don't be afraid
to tell someone you love them.
If you do,
they might break your heart...
but if you don't,
you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided
not to become a couple
because you were
so afraid of losing
what you already had
with that person?

Your heart decides
who it likes
and who it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart
what to do.
It does it on its own....
when you least suspect it,
or even when
you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted
to love someone
with everything you had,
but that other person
was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled
because we are too afraid
to care too much....
for fear that the other person
does not care as much,
or at all.

Have you ever loved someone
and they had absolutely
no idea whatsoever?
Or fell for your best-friend
in the entire world,
and then sat around
and watched her/him fall
for someone else?

Have you ever denied your
feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection
was too hard to handle? or
have you cast aside your feelings
because you thought things
were impossible?
We tell lies when we are afraid....
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out
about us.
But every time we tell a lie....
the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks
and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person
who has to look back
and wonder what he/she would have,
or could have had.

Sometimes Life offers no second chance,
no one waits forever so....
Cherish the Past,
It made you what you are.
Treasure the Present,
It's a timeless gift.
Pray for the Future,
It's where hopes are fulfilled
and dreams become reality.

Reyka and I with Tweety

Reyka gave me some presents today. She just got back from her holidays in Sydney and Gold Coast.
She got me a Tweety plush toy from Movie World and a cute pen. She thinks I like Tweety because it's YELLOW. And this particular Tweety is BLUE and YELLOW so EAGLES colours LOL.
Here's some pics of us and Tweety.

Picture

With Linda, Adriana and Jet!

Little Twin Stars

I want to wish upon a star.

Chasing Cars

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
they're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Wake Up

Wake me up when September ends.


We won? By a point? Woo hoo!

WCE Bears

Me and Ash are WCE supporters. We both have WCE 2006 Premiers Bear. So I made a collage of us with our WCE 2006 Premiers Bear.

Nico

Mark Nicoski
Teammate
"I was very happy for the boys that played. I played with majority of them the year before and remember the pain of losing the grand final by such a small margin. Sitting back and watching on the day was obviously very tough but when that siren went I was just as excited as anybody that we'd won a premiership. I remember running down quickly onto the ground and grabbing hold of Fletchy and him hugging me and saying "you're just as much a part of this as everyone else." Thinking back it was an amazing effort and I know that all of the hard work we put in over the last four or five years since Woosha's been here paid off on that day."

City

In that big city,
she fell in love.

With a guy?
With the buildings?
With the lights?

Who knows.

We do know she doesn't want to come home.

Plan for 2007

ROUND 2
30th March 7.40pm Subiaco v South Fremantle Medibank Stadium
31st March 6.30pm Peel Thunder v Perth Rushton Park
31st March 2.15pm Swan Districts v East Perth Steel Blue Oval
1st April 2.15pm Claremont v West Perth Claremont Oval
BYE East Fremantle

AFL 31st March 7.10pm Sydney v West Coast Eagles Telstra Stadium
31st March 2.10pm Fremantle v Port Adelaide Subiaco Oval

Goal - to go to the Claremont v West Perth game.

Express it!

I realise I don't really use this blog enough to express how I feel. I mean I use it to update WCE news or when I am defending them or when I want to post photos but I don't really use it to express how I feel day to day.

Anyway to cut the long story short.

I really want to visit my cousin in London but so many of my friends want me to go to Jakarta next February for the Zone Visit. Don't get me wrong I do want to see my friends again as well as meeting those I haven't yet met but at the same time I want to see Europe especially since my cousin is in London.

That's one thing.

Another thing. Friends. I feel I do a lot for my friends and I feel some don't do a lot for me when I need them and most of the time I don't ask for much at all. Sometimes I feel they are using me. I just can't say "no" sometimes and it's a real weakness on my part.

On to something else. My tummy hurts. Went to the docs. She said it's probably some sort of virus. The only thing I can eat is "bubur ayam" at the moment if I don't feel better in a couple of days time I must get an ultrasound to see what's going on there. It is so painful. Silly virus. Not happy Jan!

On to happier news. I had fun at karaoke the other night with my friends. I even had my picture taken with my ex best friend. I know the word "ex" made it sound like we now hate each other or something the reality is that we used to be so close but now we don't really talk to each other that much anymore. But I still care about her a lot. She will always be special to me. I can't ever erase the fun times we had together in the past. I am not one to forget such things. Once a special friend, always a special friend.

Here's the photo



Had the Circuit Assembly on the weekend. The program was really upbuilding and as per usual the District Overseer gave a great final talk and he was heaps funny as well. Intan attended both days so I sat with her. She came to karaoke place with us too. Very nice indeed.

Well that's all for now. Till my next entry.

Pic

Xenia, Emma, Reyka and Intan!
Taken yesterday at lunch time outside the Assembly Hall.

Ipod

Me and my ipod mini.

Hogs Breath Cafe

At Hogs Breath Cafe on Saturday night with friends!

Mother Eagle Story

There's an article with a picture of Mark Nicoski in the paper yesterday. He looked so awesome. I told my friend about it too and she was all excited how awesome. Anyway the thing behind the mother eagle story. Well the other night I had this huge disagreement/debate/misunderstanding with this person in Sydney he is Indonesian and I assumed he knows nothing about footy and he annoyed me by saying that West Coast's one point win over them was based on luck. Please!! I don't like his sarcasm either so I set him straight. I win the debate. So yeah I am mother eagle. That's what my cousin called me when I told her my story lol. Don't mess with the Eagles. I will be in their defence.

Mother Eagle

Don't mess with mother eagle - me.

Jamie S

I don't like it when I can't help my friends. I just want to make their pain go away. I truly do. I want to be there for them and to give them the right advice but sometimes it's hard to find the right words of encouragement. If someone need a friend, I will try my hardest to be there for them. That's why right now I am hurting because I know my friend is in so much pain. All I can do is listen to them and be their friend.

Idol

I can't believe it Damien won Australian Idol. He suck!! Jessica is so much better than him! Everyone was surprised! I am still cut eh. Jess is awesome. Her version of the winner's single is so much better than his but his is the one we will listen to from now on aarrggghhh for the next few months *screams*. Honestly what is wrong with Australia? You keep voting for the wrong people!

Ashes

Aussie Aussie Aussie Oi Oi Oi.

Quote of the week - "Not bad for convicts eh".

(about the Ashes series between Australia and England) :)

Three

Next year I want to change to 3.
There's this mobile phone I really want.
I told my friend that yesterday.
I love her phone and so many people has it.
I hope I can get it next year.